Where were they going? They didn't like small spaces, they needed room to grow. But even in the moments of being sloshed into their shell they felt the peace and comfort of their Creator whispering to their spirits, “I've got you, just rest in me, there is more to come.” As their environment changed from … Continue reading 7. Comfort in the Freeze

In my 36th year, we found out that it was a miracle that I conceived a couple years before, as the test results showed that Rusty, possibly as a result of medication he had to take, had male factor infertility.  This was hard news for both of us and we processed in different ways the … Continue reading 6. Diagnosis

(Trust me this will make more sense in a few entries.  For now, just know that the italicized entries are from a different perspective.) During Alex's 34th year: The little one and the tiny bit littler one looked at each other and smiled. They didn't have eyes, but they could see. Sometimes their vision was … Continue reading 5. ??

Before we go forward in this story, I think it would be beneficial to look back... For as long as I can remember I have loved babies. Even as a child, I volunteered in the church nursery just to be around them. I would day dream of finding and caring for abandoned babies in the … Continue reading 2. Looking Back

“I'm so happy for you!” If there was a polar opposite of happy, that was how I was feeling. “What a joyous occasion!” Though for me, only in the sense that joy isn't always felt and can exist in any tortuous circumstance. “It was a surprise was it? You thought your family was as big … Continue reading 1. Spectator