I can hardly believe it, the two little ones are inside of me. I will continue to speak over their lives, “You are wanted, you are loved, you are precious”. I heard a song by Dara Maclean a few years back that I really liked that went like this; “From the day you were born … Continue reading 27. Finally United 🙂

On a late autumn day, the two were just taking it all in, as the heat that was radiating into them almost stunned them speechless. As they were being taking out of their usual dark cold surrounding they saw a light, not bright, but enough to allow them to see forms of big objects moving. … Continue reading 26. Moving In

It is hard to believe the time has come for these two little ones and I to be together. For the last week we have been in the same city as them and even several times in the same building preparing* for their arrival in the same room. In a few hours, they will be … Continue reading 25. So close!

I felt my Father illustrated the Corrie ten Boom quote from my last post to me powerfully this last week in Central Asia.  I have been living the last weeks in a community with lots of dogs. Big Dogs. Dogs that easily jump their fences and come to greet me. If you know me, you … Continue reading 24. In the Moment with a Big Black Dog

Somedays the “what if's” of embryo adoption pour into my mind and try to affect my heart. “What if they both survive like I'm praying for ... will I really have enough energy to be a 'good mom' to twins in my my mid-forties and into my fifties?” “What if one or both of them … Continue reading 23. What if … ?

After over a year of being led into and then pursuing embryo adoption, it has happened, we are parents. We eagerly await hearing of their safe arrival in the clinic that we will soon be going to, where they will be transferred into me. As I think about these two traveling in a truck and … Continue reading 22. Peace beyond understanding.

“What's happening?” “We're moving ... again.” “Moving? Like eight years ago?” “Yes I'm sure of it ... don't you remember?” “I think so ...” While their bodies were still inside the semi translucent plastic that seemed like their skin after being in it for so long, the whole container of what had held the essence … Continue reading 21. On that same (un)ordinary day …

On a (un)ordinary day... August 22, 2017 Today, this seems like an ordinary day, but during ordinary days, extraordinary things happen. Things happen with movement. And on this day the two little ones that we have waited for for over a decade are on the move, across provinces into the exact place they will meet … Continue reading 20. On an (un)ordinary day …

So I have really struggled with how to write this next part of this story.  And to be honest I'm still not sure if I have the right balance to accurately share how deeply the events the day after the embryos became legally ours impacted me with ensuring that I am treating my friends, the … Continue reading 19. … Never Going to Let Us Down?

I feel like this journey has been helping me to grow in my understanding of some of the lyrics of the worship song "King of my Heart".  In particular I think of the day we finally got to sign the legal papers and the two embryos were finally ours.  It was so easy to sing … Continue reading 18. He is Good …