I decided to have a big party for my 40th, I felt loved and celebrated. Although, the children that we were working with and cared deeply about were growing up, new opportunities seemed to be opening up internationally and we started traveling more. We had finally allowed ourselves to embrace our grief journey and accepted … Continue reading 11. Birthday Present?
Category: Tankov’s Treks
Rusty’s 2nd Bee Story
It was approximately ten years between my first bee sting and my second. During that time, despite God proving himself faithful in my first allergic reaction, my fear of bees had just kept getting larger and larger. In fact a year before my second sting it had grown to the point where I asked my … Continue reading Rusty’s 2nd Bee Story
10. Grief
As Alex mentioned earlier, one of my great regrets is when I stemmed her grief after our miscarriage. I had heard stories from a mentor of loss after loss due to a medical condition and tried to copy the way that he and his wife had come to deal with their losses. Looking back on … Continue reading 10. Grief
9. Waiting
Six years had passed and nothing had changed, they felt stuck and restless at times, but His presence always brought them back to a place of peace. When their home had changed and the big freeze had come they had stopped growing and even feeling movement from place to place had ceased. They didn't know … Continue reading 9. Waiting
Rusty’s 1st Bee Story – Part 5
Ultimately I'll just be telling my story and trying to point to His enoughness, how He is the pearl that is worth any cost. Speaking of my story. I woke up before the end of the song they had been singing when I fell asleep. I felt different. I ran my fingers over my face … Continue reading Rusty’s 1st Bee Story – Part 5
8. Closing Doors
When I was 38, after having still more discouraging news about our own ability to have children, we started into foster care and looked into a few adoption possibilities as well. Although we do not regret showing love, one after another of the doors closed to adopt, causing much heartache. As I started into my … Continue reading 8. Closing Doors
7. Comfort in the Freeze
Where were they going? They didn't like small spaces, they needed room to grow. But even in the moments of being sloshed into their shell they felt the peace and comfort of their Creator whispering to their spirits, “I've got you, just rest in me, there is more to come.” As their environment changed from … Continue reading 7. Comfort in the Freeze
Rusty’s 1st Bee Story – Part 4
Rusty tried to sit through one more worship song but eventually gave up and left the building, making it as far as the attached prayer chapel before lying down on a pew there and falling asleep. Now, I have a question for you. How would you define the greatest miracle Jesus could do in this … Continue reading Rusty’s 1st Bee Story – Part 4
6. Diagnosis
In my 36th year, we found out that it was a miracle that I conceived a couple years before, as the test results showed that Rusty, possibly as a result of medication he had to take, had male factor infertility. This was hard news for both of us and we processed in different ways the … Continue reading 6. Diagnosis
5. ??
(Trust me this will make more sense in a few entries. For now, just know that the italicized entries are from a different perspective.) During Alex's 34th year: The little one and the tiny bit littler one looked at each other and smiled. They didn't have eyes, but they could see. Sometimes their vision was … Continue reading 5. ??
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