“Hey do you hear that thumping coming from yourself?” the littlest one asked. “Yes, I have been hearing it for a while now.” said the little one. “I feel more and more 'here' the more I grow.” He laughed and pumped the paddle like structures, two near his head and two near his shrinking tail. … Continue reading 35. Heartbeats
Truth in Cheese
If you're lost you can look and you will find me ... The lyrics greeted me as I plugged my headset into the armrest. Just finishing a three week trip in Europe, it was a relief to chuckle at Patty & Tuck's rendition of Time After Time. I had watched Napoleon Dynamite often enough that … Continue reading Truth in Cheese
34. Thoughts about Mary
Thinking about Mary (the one in the Bible, mother of Jesus), because of the way God orchestrated things, many things in her life were unpredictable and probably not the way that she dreamed. But I am sure that if I could sit down and talk with her today, she wouldn't have traded a thing. She … Continue reading 34. Thoughts about Mary
33. My Part vs. His
It is becoming more in my complete understanding that the little ones are indeed growing inside of me. I have less energy, so they can have more energy. I eat more carefully, so they can have the best of nutrients flowing into them. The magnitude of the life changes before me are also hitting as … Continue reading 33. My Part vs. His
How is that Boy Still Alive? #5
I settled into my seat mere minutes before we were asked to buckle up and enjoy the flight. The whole thing reminded me of a letter I had written to my sister my first week of university. A country boy at heart, I detailed how I had gotten totally lost walking around in the 'big … Continue reading How is that Boy Still Alive? #5
32. Development
This was fun! They looked at each other in a way only two embryos that have been together for nine plus years could do. They were remembering their beginning days and also when they were thawed and wooshed into their home by a similar consistency of liquid surrounding them. For the last few days, their … Continue reading 32. Development
31. The Test
I did it! I took a home pregnancy test. After I glanced at it, as I was pulling it away from my body, I flipped it over not quite ready to face what would likely be the last pregnancy test I took in my life. I spent a couple minutes praying in the midst of … Continue reading 31. The Test
How is that Boy Still Alive? #4
Finally, I was talking to a manger. He came over, looked at my boarding pass and then handed it back pointing at the date. Sunday, December 12th. Desperately hoping I was wrong, I flipped my wrist to see my watch. Monday, December 13th. I had missed my plane. --- December 12th minutes after "Russell … Continue reading How is that Boy Still Alive? #4
30. Loved
The little ones had now counted 10 times that the warm, embracing, accepting being they were in had stopped moving for a long time. Not that the movement bothered them at all, it was just interesting how the part of the being they were in would become more relaxed and their movements would have predictable … Continue reading 30. Loved
29. Stats vs Hopes
Three more days until the blood test and today I woke up feeling anxious and a bit fearful about what would happen. I mean I felt the implantation cramps on the exact right days and saw the right coloured blood, but why do I still struggle with the anxiety? Even though there are signs that … Continue reading 29. Stats vs Hopes
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